Speechless

Happy time always short in my dictionary. I can't understand why, why is my fault? why is me the one who causing these all? is it mean that i'm the one who spoil ur image? i know i know! i know you do not want to hurt her actually. you choose to hurt me rather than hurt her. i'm really idiot enough, i should know from the begining, once u start to hurt me or lie because of her then there will not to be end. i cannot believe my eyes even my ears, is you the one who told me that i hv to fight to other to save our love but not you. what i get after i just 'reply' a bit as an act? now you blame! blame i spoil all yor things! all your promise to me is missed, i lost my hope to you. yea, i'm sorry to make you feel faceless, i'll be responsible with what i hv done. you will no more get and feel my love to you anymore, is not the 1st time i told you hv to chill me when i sensitive. since you can't make it and start to blame me, i also don't want to disturb you again. i knew that you no more need me nowadays, you don't hv to face me anymore. i lose, because i'm a stupid. you lost a gal who does love you more than everything. but no more now due to you do not know how to love her in the correct way and you failed to ayang her in time. wish both of us all the best in the future.i love you, but i sad because of you also, u never done what you promise to me.

Save me out from sadness.

Do you know the feeling always cheated by the one you most trusted?
I trust you,
you promise me that will not doing the same thing;
I smile,
I believe you though I'm sad.
Again,
you stepping on my heart,
you spoiled my trust angel to you;
you beg For forgive,
again,
I cover my sadness and smiling to you.
Yea, I thought I'm the one who you love,
thought I'm the one you will not lie,
thought I'm the one who you will care more about my heart,
thought I'm the most important to you as how I put you as in my heart,
but,
just all I thought,
actually is all lie,
is just a game
and I'm the loser since I'm not suit to join in this kind of game.
Yea, it cannot be denied that you're a pro and you're the one who holding the right in this game.
Forget how many times you lie to me already,
yea, I'm hurt
super hurt.
But
who knows?
YOU will never know,
friends & family will never know,
because I won't let them know.
They do advise me before, is me,
the stupid still believe, still in love.
What's love stand for actually?
Caring
Care each others feeling
Would not doing something which partner dislike
Would not hurt partner
Always be there when partner need someone to talk with
Always stand by when partner need your voice your hug
Always on the phone so partner could call in anytime
Always understand partner
Always stay with partner no matter how hard or how is the world going to be
Always touching partner's forehead aimed to chill him/her
More...more...
How much I get?
Yea,
not much
but is deeply ingrained.
Close my eyes with tears,
who knows how I close my eyes before I go in dream every night?
Yea, with tears, with smile.

May's birthday, 25th Aug 2009

Flowers from my boy, Boy, I like it much~! Muacksssssssss!!!


















"Specially for my darling, I know you like fruit cake," said my boy. ^0^

May's Birthday on 25th Aug 2009, Location; Mango Tree *0*

^^

My boy & my brother celebrate my 20th birthday with me on 25th Aug 2009

Boy

Thanks for all the surprise

^^

My boy apply leave on that day

Aimed to plan surprise for me

I'm the lucky gal who have a boy like him

Boy

I really love it

I love the 'squach', flowers and cakes

And your love

Mango Tree

I'll remember it

with my whole life

^^

Wow...what style is that??

Oipsss....1st time see ppl play bowling with such acts, pro arh boy...

^^ sweetttttt....shy.....*0*

My boy very care me ar... I'm damn touched!!

^0^ at mourish

Me & my boy, and my brother were enjoy our time at Mourish there. I had enjoy my karaoke there, but the karaoke system there..not bad la... 40! @@

Me & my brother

^0^ handsome guy, his sister more pretty ho~ hiakssss!!!