Save me out from sadness.

Do you know the feeling always cheated by the one you most trusted?
I trust you,
you promise me that will not doing the same thing;
I smile,
I believe you though I'm sad.
Again,
you stepping on my heart,
you spoiled my trust angel to you;
you beg For forgive,
again,
I cover my sadness and smiling to you.
Yea, I thought I'm the one who you love,
thought I'm the one you will not lie,
thought I'm the one who you will care more about my heart,
thought I'm the most important to you as how I put you as in my heart,
but,
just all I thought,
actually is all lie,
is just a game
and I'm the loser since I'm not suit to join in this kind of game.
Yea, it cannot be denied that you're a pro and you're the one who holding the right in this game.
Forget how many times you lie to me already,
yea, I'm hurt
super hurt.
But
who knows?
YOU will never know,
friends & family will never know,
because I won't let them know.
They do advise me before, is me,
the stupid still believe, still in love.
What's love stand for actually?
Caring
Care each others feeling
Would not doing something which partner dislike
Would not hurt partner
Always be there when partner need someone to talk with
Always stand by when partner need your voice your hug
Always on the phone so partner could call in anytime
Always understand partner
Always stay with partner no matter how hard or how is the world going to be
Always touching partner's forehead aimed to chill him/her
More...more...
How much I get?
Yea,
not much
but is deeply ingrained.
Close my eyes with tears,
who knows how I close my eyes before I go in dream every night?
Yea, with tears, with smile.