What should I do..

what should i do
i feel like lost my direction
do you know the feel cheated by the one you trust
damn
effect my mind now
how i am going to concentrate
feel like go to the beach
though only a little bit memories we had there
why happy time for me is always the shortest
huh
i'm tired
really tired
don't want to think too much
just hope i can get back all my mind asap
then
i can go back after a week
will leave here soon
leave the memories you hurt me
i will be ok
i'm sorry
i'm not willing to live under someone's shadow
you failed to do that
and there is no ending for your pass
for you and her
thanks for your love
i scared
i have lost my courage to face it again and again
if you cannot erase it and throw those all
why you promise me
WHY
i'm not born to 'under' you and stand for that all such things
YOU LIE