why u never think of ....

when i wrote to you
sure got my own reason
but
you reject to read it
damn much excuse you gave
that's the way we please
i keep been silent
have no way for me to go out from this
you don't know how much i wish can cry
cry out all about our memories
then i can forget it
just like throw all those mixed memories into the sea
let the sea water help me digest it all
let the sun light keep those memories warm
let the moon light keep them cold
and never let them come back to my mind
i cannot keep my mind chill
why
you shouldn't do that
when i tell you i have something need to let you know
also meant that i need you read it and tell me why
i need you solve my question
but
you never think to read that
i give you chance
give you time to get and read it
but
why you ignore it
do you know that by the way it also meant you ignore my feeling
i can't chill since you haven't read what i wrote for you
it's kill
i did give you
chance
time
all i did
but
have you ever give me that
ever just spend a bit time to read it
no
you reject to do that
well
i wouldn't force you to read it anymore
because i'm going to take it back
and let it disappear
like you wish
you will never know what is in my mind
and please don't ask me why
or what i'm thinking of
because
since the moment you always reject to know my words through that way
you reject my heart also
you never take a chance to know my words
what for if i still keep it all
just let it go
all that
will r.i.p

What should I do..

what should i do
i feel like lost my direction
do you know the feel cheated by the one you trust
damn
effect my mind now
how i am going to concentrate
feel like go to the beach
though only a little bit memories we had there
why happy time for me is always the shortest
huh
i'm tired
really tired
don't want to think too much
just hope i can get back all my mind asap
then
i can go back after a week
will leave here soon
leave the memories you hurt me
i will be ok
i'm sorry
i'm not willing to live under someone's shadow
you failed to do that
and there is no ending for your pass
for you and her
thanks for your love
i scared
i have lost my courage to face it again and again
if you cannot erase it and throw those all
why you promise me
WHY
i'm not born to 'under' you and stand for that all such things
YOU LIE

I walk alone, always!

Who I am..

The moment you say we're in love
I smile
The moment you hold me tight
I smile
The moment you stare on my face
I smile
The moment you get angry
I cried
But you don't know
Because the tears were dropped inside my heart
The moment you lie
I cried
You hold my hand and said you love me
I smile
You hold me tight and said is all over
You only love me
I smile
And I hold you back
Again
You lie
You never throw your pass
I cried
This time you have no chance to see
Because you are not around
I smile
I know there is no ending
No need to keep it on
Dead sea
Just like my heart now

:(

Stress...what should I do
Don't want to be like that anymore
Freedom
where are you
Hate such life
But still need to go
No one know my feeling
Anyone care
Come and smile for me
That's all you can help
I wish I can be like the others
No worries in ##%$
Only concentrate in %$##$
Arh... MY GOD
Where are you
I never do crime though I'm poor
Can you hear me
Please listen to me
Just want to end such life
I want happiness
Peaceful
How long I still need to be
GOD
Love me please
Like how you love the others
Like how you gave them chance to be rich
To have the properties
PLEASE

EEEEEeeeeeeeEEEEeeeEeEee!!!!!

EEEEEeeee!!!! I like these!!! haha.... I will go for it after final!!!

THANKS Boy ^^

^^
Thanks for your support
Thanks for your caring
^^
I miss your cookies
And mushroom soup with extra mushroom
Miss ayang
Miss your confidence
Miss the moment you chill and settle problems
^^
Hope I can see all these coming back soon
All the best to you
And Good Luck

Have a good day..guek guek!!

Hehe... I'm frog frog, wish you all have a good day ! @0@

^^ Good luck

Good morning!! I'm very full, just ate two pack of ' cup mee '!!! Sigh... I often eat like that sure will gain weight easy de @@
Wow.. final is nearing, I haven't done my revision yet. Hope I can done my revision before the exam date ^^
Hmm... I'm worried about the coming singing competition too. It have been a long time I didn't participate in a singing competition, I wonder I still have the courage to sing on the stage.
HAha.. quite happy with my sister. She will sing at the same day with me but she is not my opponent anymore. She is one of the participant in elite group whereas I'm still in public group. I still remember during the past, both of us represent our primary school go for the singing competition which is a competition between primary schools. We also represent our secondary school go for secondary school's singing competition when we were in secondary school. I didn't join in any singing competition after I done my form 5, that's why I worried about my coming soon competition, it will be the 1st singing competition for me after I 'left' the ' singing competition world ' for few years. And I knew that I'm 'outdated' in singing already since I have no time and no chance to train my vocal & upgrade myself. Studies, take my time & karaoke places always is not a best choice for me to train my singing. Yea, I like singing but I'm far with it now, it is so hard for me to sing at karaoke here even is just sing without mic at home. That's because the stereo set of local karaoke is sucks & too mixed + disorderly. By the way, I scared will disturb my neighbours so I never dare to sing at home. Arh... is suffer for me!!! Really miss my home, I can sing freely & anytime I want with my lovely hi-fi! Well, it cannot be denied that my sister is good in singing and she has the patience to learn & keep upgrade her singing skill. By the way, thanks for her teacher, Keane. I'm proud with my sister ^^
Furthermore, she will join in the next coming singing competition which comprise every province in the whole Sarawak. I'm here, wishes my sister all the best in her performance and good luck ^^
The few coming months, she will sit for her SPM. If not mistaken, she will sit for her SPM after September. Again, wishes my sister good luck in her SPM. I hope she will arrange her time well and I have the confidence that she is able to face these coming competition & exam. ^^ Because she like me ~ hiak hiak !

@%*%$@@###.....

Mr. Jong, I'm getting pissed offff cause of
your attitude!!!! Can
you please ' correct' it before I gonna screammmm on you!!!
You, where is your confidence?? PLEASE ' call ' them back, right now!!!

I'm sorry...

I'm sorry... ;( sister, please don't be sad la... I know I didn't keep my promise but it doesn't meant that I forget you or never care you. Really sorry if I made you sad... I don't know what should say...
^^ wish you the best & hope you get well soon.

hiak hiak。。。

一天两粒蛋 吃了身体壮！！

我的心跳

我 的心太乱

要些什么呢
我也没有方向
可是我可以肯定
大人们看到一定会说当然现在最重要的是读书啦
我也想
但是
这世界上生存着亿万种的人
不同的背景
不同的生活方式
不同的享受法
不同的痛苦
自己留着什么泪有谁比自己更清楚
再多的安慰如果自己无法释怀也是徒劳无功
看着别人开心 我会微笑
见到别人痛苦 我会心酸
为何这世间有那么多的七情六欲
我习惯自己哭&笑
不用接受别人有色的同情
多轻松呵
什么时候是人最享受的
又什么时候是轻松的呢
呵呵
身边的朋友说吃喝玩乐
调皮的朋友说做爱最享受
…………
回家的时候我最享受
哭出心里的泪我最轻松
我不能倒下
不是上天对我不公平
我知道
是因为他们都需要我
所以我不用听天由命
而是努力让大家快乐
不是我伟大
是看到身边的爱人们快乐
也就是我笑容最真的时刻

Attention!!! haha..

Good morning to all my dearrrr frens ^^

Today, I wake up around 715am. Not nice..cause is still early for me~
I'm not in mood to study now, sigh...too bad, study also need mood, may, you!!!
Z.hai lao ah gong ~ anyway, thanks for your advice ^^
Hmmm....no matter how lazy I'm now, still need to force myself to study.
May, beat your goal!!
Good luck to you all who is going to have final exam ^^

Today is Wednesday!

Good morning, quite sleepy...today class start at 1030am-marketing again! hmm...final exam is coming soon, wish all the student who is going to sit for the exam good luck and all the best. Finally, I bought pearl milk tea yesterday night!!! HeHe...I add double pearl, super nice & satisfied me~ wooohooo!!! ^^

I also went to jogging with mina at the nearby garden. But mina not really good in jogging, she keep on smelling here and there, actually she was trying to 'shit' but she failed to do that. I guess she cannot find a good 'place' so she doesn't want to shit..

Hmm... one of the association member asked me go for a singing competition. It had been a longgggggg time I didn't go for singing even karaoke. I have no time to train also, I haven't confirm with him yet, wonder I still have the 'power' to join in a competition? Anyway, the competion will be held after my final, what I need to concern now is my final exam.

All the best to my dear fren, same as me ^^ have a nice day!

My nails~

Here, is the latest version ^^

Sorry for the late posting, this is my previous version of my nails.

Today is what day??

I'm not in mood today, don't know why. Cynthia, sorry..not I'm in bad temper and not much talk with you is angry or what, honestly, I also don't know what's wrong with me. Just feel like no idea to go, even can't heard what my mind trying to tell me. Anyway, thanks for trying to comfort me. Maybe I'm just worried to get lost something which... or maybe is the fate?
Final is coming soon, but I still haven't clear my mind and concentrate in my revision. Here, another last minute lazy gal! huh~ very tired and sleepy now. But I don't feel like go to sleep now because if I sleep around this time, sure cannot wake up later and only will wake up during mid night. Arh...yesterday I failed to buy pearl milk tea, I'm thinking to get it later...

^^

It had been a long time I didn't upload my blog. Many things happened on me, very tired & blurrrr... Anyway, I got to concentrate in my revision now since final is approaching. ^^ I miss my home much, father's day is coming soon, it make me miss me dad much much and much! Daddy, I miss you and I love you! Thanks for caring me well. Quite stress, because of the final. Wish GOD blessed me, always be with me, giving me energy to face and able to settle all the things and problem which comes forward me.

Hmm...is time to class now, have a nice day to you & mE!!! ^^

@@

hehe...i don't know what it named in english, in chinese is ' jiao shu'

爱要怎么分

爱要怎么分？人的心可以爱几个人？怎么分辨什么是爱什么是友情什么又是同情？对他，是同情还是爱？

爱情总让我们难以捉摸
我们总是希望对方可以做到自己心目中的百分百情人
却没有顾虑到对方的感受&自己是否也是对方心里的理想情人
有人说对的人在对的时间出现就是你该爱的人
我听不懂
我们又怎么知道谁就是那个对的人
而什么时间才算是对的时间呢
有些伴侣总介意另一半有不美好的过去
却没想到另一半的苦衷 不美好的过去 谁会想要有这样的记忆呢
谁真正明白当事人的痛？
谁会去珍惜我的爱？
外人的闲言乱语
不断的冲着我来
哈哈
是我太耀眼了吗
为何那么喜欢跟我‘配料’？
我很好奇
外人怎么能以几面之闻就这样在背后中伤他人呢？
我们都是人类 都是活在同个世界里
我没有伤害到你们更没有给你们造成什么威胁
为何要这样？
你们就那么闲空 就那么的缺德 就那么的不顾对方的感受吗？
不怕缺口德吗
人的心真的好可怕！
是因为嫉妒我吗？
我行的正 走得更正
真金不怕炉火炼
我不会因为你们的乱语乱定论而让自己不开心
可是我担心我爱的人会介意
毕竟要顾及的东西还有很多 他没有我那么开怀
宝贝 如果他人的言语能那么轻易就否定我在你心中的位置
那也就显示了我们的爱是那么的不堪一击
宝贝 听到你的难过
我的眼泪会是酸的
用你的心去认定我 而不是外人对我的否认好吗？
你爱我 就是要跟我创造我们的未来 而不是那些人
我们的未来 彼此的关怀与体谅才是关键
外人不是陪着你走人生路的那道光
请好好爱我
感觉不到被爱的时候
我也会彷徨
或许也会因此而退出你的世界
我要快乐
要怎么才能拥有？
太多的不信任 会让我想。。。
宝贝 爱我就相信我
不要伤害我
你知道的 我不忍心伤害你
因为你是宝贝

what a busy week...

Arh... days become 'heavy' to me since the final is coming soon. I haven't start my revision yet, because of the sucks assignment. What the.... I am not feeling good with the group assignment, cause of the group members problem. Hmm... I think cynthia is having the same feeling like me. But, what we can do? Only can keep been chill, or else things will be worse. ^^ finally, me & cynthia cooled down, thanks gal, the song bring us out from the anger. Tomorrow, we will going to sit for law test. I still haven't finish my revision, I need some more time to relax my mind now. I wonder why this could be? There is no explaination between ppl's quarrel, isn't it? All human being wanted to be the winner, to be the hero...sigh. Anyway, I will blessed her, all the best to her.

is snake!!

hehe...is snake! the one I uploaded few days ago is snake meat. have you try it before? I did ^^

？？

哈！难明白，他怎会是这种人？是因为受了情伤所以这样，还是以为他自己有一身好身材所以觉得不用白不用？？他，变得如此的滥交！真替他的父母可怜，养育了这样的孩子。或许他觉得是荣幸吧！却不知其实他很可怜，因为没有人能跟他相处于长时间。他不懂得珍惜别人，难怪会落到如此的下场。真是现报！奉劝大家要多及功德，来日好过点。

^^ Thanks mummy~

gUESS what is this?? haha.. i will upload more pic tomorrow, goodnight!!!
ThIS vege...cooked by my sister ^^
hiak hiak..see the 'prawn head', I like prawn!!!
almost finished by may lo!!! haha... it taste good, my mum is the best chef ^^
Hehe...see, these are crabs!! My mum know I like seafood much, so she prepared these cookies for me when I reached home!!

wOw ~ taking movie???

wow...they trying to do what??
Guess what is this??

Huh~ tired..

^^ Hello Kch!! I'm back~!! Very tired today because I just came back yesterday, driving for long journey is quite tired and horrible! Anyway, I reached Kch safely. Today, the whole morning I was in sleepy mode, Cynthia keep pity me. Haha..she look very happy today, cause her mummy came back from Hong Kong already. I guess...one of the reason she felt happy is no need cook for lunch or dinner!! Haha... well, later still got class till 530 pm, really hope my bed is just beside me now, I wanna have a rest... I did appreciate the moment I went back to my hometown. Was fantastic!! I'll tell more later. ^^ going to class now...have a nice day to all my dear friends!!!